Certain experiences and trauma may make us believe that we don't need another human being to make our life complete. I believed so too but honestly, having my wounds kissed by someone who didn't see them as disasters but cracks to put their love into is the utmost calming thing in this world.
It’s okay to let your guard down once in a while. The best lesson you learned from your first heartbreak was that you know better. You’ll know when it doesn’t feel right. You’ll know if this person is all sorts of wrong for you. And you won’t settle for anything else ever again.
At first, you don’t really notice it. It starts with the small things. You can finally notice when someone is looking at you and have the courage to give them a small smile. It doesn’t feel wrong anymore when a cute guy talks to you and this time, you actually want to have a conversation. Maybe you’ll even give him your number when he asks for it. You can finally allow yourself to accept the idea that it is okay to let someone else in.
You might finally like someone on a real level. You might be talking all the time. And yes, despite all of your efforts, your feelings are growing deeper and deeper everyday.But you’re scared. You don’t want to let your walls down. You start to question yourself. ‘Am I enough?’ ‘Does he really like me?’ ‘Is this just a game to him?’ ‘What if it happens again?’ Please don’t. Don’t shut it all out again. Don’t lock away your emotions.
Allow yourself to feel again, even if it takes everything you’ve got. Don’t let yourself think that it will be like the last time. I can guarantee you that it won’t.
Because this person is different. This person isn’t the one who broke your heart. This is someone new. Someone who could love you with everything that he’s got, if you give him the chance. So please do, because some people don’t get a second chance. Some people spend the rest of their lives wishing they could meet someone they trusted enough to open their heart to again. Don’t blame this potential love for the mistakes of your old one. Instead learn from it, do all the things you didn’t do. Allow this love to grow. Allow yourself to grow. You can’t keep on being afraid of what you’re capable of giving. Don’t hold yourself back from feeling a new kind of happy.
Because this person is different. This person isn’t the one who broke your heart. This is someone new. Someone who could love you with everything that he’s got, if you give him the chance. So please do, because some people don’t get a second chance. Some people spend the rest of their lives wishing they could meet someone they trusted enough to open their heart to again. Don’t blame this potential love for the mistakes of your old one. Instead learn from it, do all the things you didn’t do. Allow this love to grow. Allow yourself to grow. You can’t keep on being afraid of what you’re capable of giving. Don’t hold yourself back from feeling a new kind of happy.
I gave myself another chance at love and found myself a friend, a soulmate and my better half. :)
I had convinced myself that I could live and survive in this world without a significant other. I told myself I was capable of making myself happy. I made myself believe that love was a feeling I could easily avoid.
But then I met you and everything changed.
You make me take a step back and reconsider my decision of refusing to believe in love. You have a strange way of triggering my softness. The sound of your voice encourages me to show my vulnerability, and to feel comfortable with sharing my emotions. Your simple existence makes me want to tear down my walls.
And I’m still clueless how you’re able to do that. I’m surprised by your ability to light a fire in my cold, dysfunctional heart. I wonder if it’s a talent you’re born with, or you’re just used to handling someone with a heavy baggage. Either way, I’m glad you come into my life.
My life isn’t perfect – and will never be – but I’m so thankful that you’re here to make it a little less lonely. I can’t thank you enough for infecting me with your positive vibes. I’m glad to have your laughter as my new favorite sound in this world. I’m glad with the way you can easily bring a smile to my lips. I’m glad that you inspire me and always remind me to follow my heart above all.
I’m amazed by your inexhaustible energy while you communicate with everyone. I’m amazed by how you make me fall in love with you more, as I get to know you.
You renew my faith in love. You help me share a piece of my heart again. And you have all the right in the world to own it, to put fences around it, and to make it yours. But all I’m asking you is to handle it with caution, because the one who held it before you crushed it. I can’t afford another betrayal, and another round of picking up the pieces of my heart.
But by looking at your innocent eyes, I know that I can trust you. I know that my experience with love is going to be different this time around. I’m confident that you’re way too nice to hurt anyone. And even if we argue about petty things once in a while, I believe that you’re not going to let a day end without making amends with each other.
What I’m certain for sure is that I’m grateful that I have you in my life.
And I promise that you will always have a special place in my heart, no matter what.
Thankful to god,
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